goddammit fucking hate everything. why do i have to choose between affordable tuition and health insurance? between repaying my loans with only a part-time job, or not working at all and deferring loans and sinking into debt? being financially desolate with the possibility of happiness in a place i like, or financially secure and otherwise utterly miserable in a place i can’t bear? if i cash my bonds now then i’ll lose my grants later, if i don’t then i won’t 

who should i whore myself out to now?

pukingneoneels:

justgivemenovember:

the feelings i share with certain friends are so intimate, so beautiful, that it’s ridiculous that i don’t call them lovers just because we don’t sleep together.

i’ve taken to calling certain friends my lovers and it’s a beautiful thing
and for those who enjoy sex, why not have it with anyone special to you 

(Source: nirvikalpa)

pendants and earrings. the first couple represent the “void”. the very last one is a representation of this, which we collaborated on intellectually and would be much to explain. 

so excited and happy about all of this. 

pukingneoneels:

listening to lecture on st. augustine and philosophy
while i make pendants and beads and hair clips
also later when i am not making jewelry
i’ll be starting to read the asoiaf series
since i’ve been watching game of thrones　

<3

pukingneoneels:

here’s another one
i love orange and purple
i’ve made a bunch but they’re all similar to this one or the other one i posted
it only just occurred to me to make them look like a chambered nautilus  

yay pretty pendants and arts and crafts!!!

also, do you know how frickin cute you are? 

pukingneoneels:

so kammy and i are going to start a business
we’re thinking of making, candles, stationary, jewelry, crocheted or knitted plushies and accessories 
it’ll all going to be trippy, influenced by our art and our readings, which i can’t quite explain here, but everything in the shop will have an explanation behind it, you’ll see
if anyone would like to see anything in particular, let us know
i’m excited　 

so close to done!!!

finished with the table….note the diagonal supports underneath :3

now need to clean and install a wall-mounted light overhead

can’t wait to make beautiful things here!!

pukingneoneels:

people think i don’t have my life planned out but i do, i’m going to be a therapist who uses tarot cards and crystals and her singing bowl and does meditative therapy, and i’ll also be a poet and a painter, everything is going to be amazing and maybe i’ll make it big but i am at least going to make it a little bit big, big enough for me because i don’t need much, just a little house i’ll decorate all cozy, maybe a little cottage in the woods, or just a little apartment in the city

i love you so much laura, and you’re the best therapy/therapist I’ve ever had. When I become a hippy midwife who preaches the divinity of childbirth, who shows people that pain is just feeling, a necessary part of life, who awakens women to their dual nature and procreative power through nine months of spiritual and medical care…then I will tell all my clients to come visit you…and you can sort out any life problems they have down the road. goodness knows you’re good at that. we can build ourselves a cottage using our own hands. it can be a retreat for us and our clients…when we’re not living in our adjacent apartments. i like that idea so much: to work in the city, but to invite clients into a private and natural place for their spiritual and emotional edification, not to mention the clean air, beautiful trees, and birdsong. 

oh the irony

accidentally slipped while paring an edge and sliced my wrist

while working on a project meant to keep me from falling into depression